then comes marriage...then a house...a dog...then baby is 41 weeks old

Dear littlest Russell,

Today you have been out for exactly how long you were in. Yes I'm going to be "that" Mom. How fast this time in my life has gone. And look how fast my hair has grown-just kidding (kinda)!

Love & Kisses,

Mom

then comes marriage...then a house...a dog...then mommy is going crazy

Dear littlest Russell,

I've really noticed that there are a lot of articles and blogs posts being shared about the first few months home with your baby. Most of them talk about how hard and exhausting it is taking care of a newborn and how life gets easier and better. It makes me feel sad. I realize that for a lot of new moms those first few months can suck...really badly, but for us is was wonderful. I see now that I had it way beyond easy. You slept well, ate really well and overall you were a very happy content little boy. Dare I say you were "Easy". I rocked those first few months I mean you basically did the eat, sleep, poop cycle on repeat like clockwork. 

Then things slowly changed. You started to get teeth and that I hear is quite painful. Also I'm having to watch you like a hawk these days. You are very mobile-constantly pulling yourself up and walking all over the place. Getting into things you shouldn't. You have sooooo many bruises from little falls and tumbles it looks like I don't look after you. 

And now there is the business of entertaining you. You are pretty good at playing by yourself when I need you to but I always feel like we should be out doing stuff because before I know it I'm going to have to return to work and our time for doing fun things is soon to be very limited. It's exhausting. I'm exhausted. Where are the blogs that say that this part can suck? Just as it seems like everyone else is getting the hang of this parenting business I'm starting to feel lost. 

You are still a great kid. For the most part you are still that smiley, happy go lucky little dude (especially in front of others). It's just with me you pull out all your emotions. I've read that that is a good sign. It shows you trust me and yada-yada. Can I just say that I'm not a fan of this stage. It sucks and for anyone else who may come across my little blog post who feels the same way please let me know I'm not the only one. I do truly feel like I'm going crazy and that I'm all alone.

The other day you fell asleep on my chest like you did when you were super small and you better believe I snuggled you for that entire nap. I miss my little baby. 

Love & Snuggly Hugs,

Mom